It’s morning. I’m up very early, as with a lot of my days, so I can have some time to myself before the guys get up.
I’m already feeling down and discouraged. I can’t have this. I have a life to enjoy, a Savior to serve, a husband to love, and a son to raise.
So, though something inside of me wants to give in to these depressive feelings, something else in me, the fighter I guess, decides to take action.
I have applied Tension Blend (wintergreen, lavender, peppermint, frankincense, cilantro roman chamomile, marjoram, basil, rosemary), which is emotionally called the oil of relief, and bergamot, the oil of self-acceptance.
I have been having crazy dreams and restless sleep for some time now. I wake up with a tense body and a tight jaw and carry this around during the day. I have done my stretches this morning. The stretches and the Tension Blend will help relieve, physically, the anxious feelings that are pent up in my body. But this goes deeper. Something is going on in my subconscious mind that needs to be dealt with. I am working on figuring this out.
The bergamot will assist me in changing my perspective of myself. One cause of my depressive mood is that I am so unsure of myself, second-guessing my actions and intentions much of the time. I am working through this issue with the Lord. I am trusting him to lead me to a place of peace.
From experience working through issues in the past, I know that this will take time and persistence. But by continually staying close to Jesus in prayer and continuing to apply bergamot and other oils that support me addressing these issues, I am confident that the Lord will walk me through to a place of wellness.
As I write this, I am already feeling better. I was tempted to go back to bed and give in to these negative feelings, but prayer, the oils, and determination not to give in has brought me through.